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LiveStrong, LiveWrong

nikbby — 2009-08-31T16:37:00Z

well todays just another monday, first monday back to school. we started thrusday (completely smart) but techniquilly this is the first week. it's also the week ashton goes away for the weekend and i have alot of stress pinned on me, especially since school started. i wasn't intouch with anyone from school during the summer and now since back in school i cant run away from them, ill see them the very next day. its not like i hate everyone or they hate me. its just i dont really care if they're in my life or not, they dont really matter to me, other than drea. me and her were friends since grade 3 and shes amazing. shes actually the only one in the entire school who know about my pregnancy (another reason why i'm so stressed recently i guess) but the thing is, even if we've been friends for so long, we weren't really close friends. not friends where i can go to and cry on your shoulder. thats why i thought it was awesome for her to act they way she did when i told her. in our school you dont hear much about sex and pregnancy and even if you do its rare or its either too stop or young to even matter. anyway, i didnt really give much info either about this prego business. well of course ashtons the dad and its only been a month now. but were not keeping, i was somewhat crushed because this all happened before thats why i guess i'm not so emotional about this topic but it still affects me in a way that id have to do it all again. it sucks and i'm sorry to do it.
this weekend since he's going away, i'm going to dinner again with drea and we just might hit a club after. either way it'll be a nice get together. a week or two ago we had dinner at ichibans and it was nice. we might go again but this time drink more. lol i told ashton he better pay up before he leaves.
still haven't got that tattoo yet, i've gotten my monroe done, i dont really remember if i posted a picture but heres one again.

oh i've gotten bangs over the summer too. i'm out to smoke. i hope this year its better, i also hope to spend more time with ashton. its been so distant between him and i recently, i really need things to be even more tight with us, espeically since whats going on. cant do these things yourself.

Tea Forté pour Nicolé

nikbby — 2009-08-13T18:29:00Z

has anyone else but me tried these teas? they're called Tea Forté. they are the most delicious all natural tea i have ever tasted, they are very decorative as well.

i've registered online at their site and soon i will have teas crawling around the house, drinking them 24/7. they not only sell these unique teas but teacups and pots and tea trays as well. this weekend is my birthday and for a gift from my sister she brought me a sampler's tin of these teas and i love them. she also got me beer bottle 'sleeves'. they're basically livestrong rubber bands with words like, tease, bitch, slut, egomanic, prick, etc.. little rubber bands to recognize your beer bottles. i just hope when i'm out i dont throw them out with my beer like i'm used to. pre-gifts from everyone were each adorable in their own ways. lol ican't wait to see what ashton gets me though, he always spoils me and spends like crazy. he still wont even give me a hint but w.e it's only on more day :)
i dont know at all what i'm planning for my bday, all i know is that i'm going to dinner satur, the actual birth date and sunday i want to just relax on the beach with some beers and grilled food. the rest is for life to take ahold of and for me to just go with the flow.
these teas are making me feel great and position, lol please try them, they are perfect, in looks and taste. they are all nature and with a HUGE varity of flavors. my favorite from the little sample tins my sister brought is the coco truffles. i also like green tango, which is green tea with mango cuts and flavours. yummm, whats your favorite tea in general? they also have a handmade blend of earl grey tea, i want to buy them all.
p.s i'm glad i'm taking french

lets just keep going until we fall off the face of the earth

nikbby — 2009-08-10T08:07:00Z

this weekend has been something. ashton surprised both me and my mom in the foodstore friday. he surprised us both, he was home very early and he reconized the car outside so he came in to see us and follow us home. if it wasn't for me and my mom finding everything around us so hilarous and laughing our whole way home we probably would have beaten him there. whatever. i was driving and she was laughing up a storm and so was i and it was hard to focus lol, at least we have these moments. when we got home we just took out the food with ashtons help and made dinner and stayed in for that night. we watched 13th ghost and it just felt cozy. saturday first thing i woke up extremely early to get ashton some breakfast from burgerking to thank him for finally getting off work before 9pm. lately i've been seeing him at 11pm or later. so it was around 10am when i got the food by him and his stepbrothers here from georgia and he was already getting ready for the day when ashton was just in the bed. we ate on the back porch and it was nice. me and jordan caught up because believe it or not i was friends with him since i was a kid. it just happened to turn out that down the line his mom would divorce and blahblahblah and now im dating a guy that happen to be his stepbro. its weird how life plays out sometimes but i'm glad it takes its twists and turns. he left as soon as we were done and we were on our way to go shopping, me and ashton down at the mall. i brought these amazing heels from catch 22 and these i said are for my bday. i want to look good for the dinner so of course i have to get all my gifts before lol. i'm coming back to catch 22 next weekend to buy another pair. they didnt have my size in the pair i was planning to get so i just brought these instead, i havn't forgetten about them though.
for my bday i can't wait, its one more week away on the 15th and i'm planning on drinking myself into a coma. i hope that doesnt happen of course because that very next day i hope to be on the plane heading for georgia with ashton. we'll see about even just going away for a couple days. i dont need to stay there long i just need to leave this place.

perfect

nikbby — 2009-08-03T13:50:00Z

agh, i'm sure craving a nutty bar right now. i'm going crazy. todays a local holiday here in the bahamas and today jordan finally came back to nassau. he's a friend i knew since i was a baby but we grew apart in time as we got older. i ended up dating his stepbrother, how ironic is that. point is i haven't seen him in a long time and him and ashton are hanging out today. just got home from picking them up so giving them some time together, and i also wanna just chill here at home and play games with no worries.
ashton birthday was last thrusday and we both were completely hammered. we had to take a taxi home with his friends and jeez, most of that night is a blur and to him he doesn't remember shit period.
my tattoo on my lower back is finally going to be done this weekend. friday afternoon i cant wait, jordans completely into those type of shit so hes coming along to watch. hey, i got a monroe whiles waiting for the funds for my tattoo, it looks awesome and jay my tattooist does great jobs every single time, cant wait to see him friday. take a look

at first i didn't feel it suit me at all but i'm really growing to love it to death, expecially when my hair is down. its the perfect accessory and jay's saving 2 gorgoues rings for me. one that is black and tiny but with a cute diamond at the top. and the other is clear rod with a pretty pearl like material that changes color to whatever youre wearing or where you are, for instance if i was in a meadow, the stone would be bright green. its also sooo tiny that its the cutest. this summers was/is extremely boring and went by both slow and fast at times. i hate that.

arg these damn nutty bars, they taste so good and they are soo easy to get from the store, cheap and everywhere, i sent my fiance out just 5mins ago to go get me a pack, oh god if they aren't open. having to crave something soo bad to the point where youd do anything to get it is where i am right now. lol im scared i have to wait for tomorrow for these heaven sent waffers.

Busy, busy , busyy

nikbby — 2009-07-12T13:50:00Z

this weekend has been busy and pretty much i've been on my feet the whole time. friday was a national holiday so no where was open so we went to marcos and partied till late that night, too bad ashton got a stomach bug and we had to cut it short. yesterday, we did little errands all day but we went to the bar and grill called atlas. it was really good and was entered in the atlantis casino so it was a good atmosphere around us. today.. nothing much its pretty boring i'd admit. ashton just left to pick up his dad from the airport and play some 360 by marcos since hes going away tomorrow. he's coming back for dinner though but i dont think we'll be going anywhere tonight. my allergies have been affecting my eyes and its just a disaster. hope you guys enjoyed your weekend. this week i'm hoping to go to the store home fabrics to look for some felt fabric, i want to make a gay ass xbox teddy for ashton. lol i know he'll hate me for it and never take it anywhere, but its something i can practise on and he loves when i make him things, no matter how girlly and gay lol. thank god he finds them cute.

moments gone by

nikbby — 2009-07-06T06:52:00Z

last night ashton and i went to watch transformers. it was a good movie and i thought it wouldve been better if it didnt focus much on the 'hotness' of megan fox. i dont mean to sound like a bitch but is it really nesscerry to nag your boyfriend when the worlds being attacked by huge ass robots? lol but ashton told me it was just like the cartoon or comic or w.e so that made me apperciate it more. we then went back home for a massage because he was telling me he was sore from the theatre, freaking old man and i said id do it for a beer. later we went to snowies bar, he got me 3 buds and himself some hienkien. w.e i was happy. we smoked and drank until dark and went back to the apartment.
it was a really good night, it felt like one of the old days and i guess everyone ina relationship trys to get those moments back. im just thankful we can. today i dont know what im going to do. i want to go with my sister to get my passport up to date but shes working long hours recently. i deactivated my facebook because ive got some many things to do this week, actually for the rest of summer. ashtons bdays on the 30th and i was planning the whole day until he told me wed be away for it. so im not really familiar with georgia but i know some friends up there, hopefully theyll point me to romantic resturants and shit.
anyway hope you guys enjoyed new years and the rest of your summer.

lol i mentioned an egytian tortiose, a fennec fox or another puppy for my bday. lets see whatll happen :)

with arms wide open

nikbby — 2009-07-02T06:54:00Z

facebook is too cute

my boyfriend purposed a couple months ago but he just sent me this facebook thingy
it was cuter in person let me just say lol

today me and my old friend shelly are going to thhe beach for the entire day. thank god, this weathers been keeping all bahamians from the beach. i cant wait to feel the warmth on me, thats the best. pics will be up also, now that i found my usb cable im takin pics of everything lol. tomorrow is friday and me and ashton are going to dinner at ichibans, a delicious japanese resturant that is very pretty and its on the beach and it has like an italian theme lol, its just really beautiful inside. a bit small though. anyway were going to dinner and i guess just drive around and drink until we go home. saturday, im visiting jason again about the tattoo. money is still an issue but it looks great. sat i might be with martysta downtown.
busy fun weekend. enjoy yours.

take it or leave it

nikbby — 2009-06-26T07:35:00Z

this weekends going to be fun. i rounded up some old friends for beaching it this entire weekend. from friday afternoon to sunday night. it's going to be huge. bonfires, beer, the warm sun. too bad i'm gonna have my new tattoo so i cant go in the water and i have to limit all the sun thats gonna be on my back. oh well it wont ruin things for me.
next week ashton is planning on taking me with hiim to norman's cay. not much americans know about it, but as you know the bahamas has many islands. norman's cay is off the coast of exuma. its beautiful he says. i've never been to where we're headed but he described the house we're renting and its on the beach with glass walls looking over it. damn. he goes there becaue his job all the time but since its summer he said hed ask to bring me with him. his coworker, marco will bring his gfriend too if i go. me and her get along great and its company for us both. that too is going to be exciting.

i am that i am

nikbby — 2009-06-23T12:22:00Z

i have sinus really bad so im here home, in bed. i was watching the mummy returns and im remembering how much i loved it. its been a very slow and boring day today, i wont lie. ashtons coming for dinner but im sending him home early. hes been working his ass off recently so i would like him to sleep early if only for tonight. ive been looking at some awesome deco ideas for my apartment. i cant wait to move in. it should be sometime in the new year and i hope it comes by faster.

im not a huge fan of open spaces in a home, i feel it defeats the purpose of cosy homey areas but thats just me. the one on the right i am in love with but i like the french bakery look of the left one. you should see the living rooms i was looking at before. my taste is appearlly mod with some vintage thrown in, doesnt it look like it? anyway we didn't have the funds for that customized egyptian tattoo last weekend so this friday im going to have a hard time sleeping on my back. pics like i said will come sooner. for right now im on that hunt again looking for a new puppy. tragically mines died of hypothermia and i felt helpless when he did (i almost forgot i posted his pic, can have a look see). i want to try again for the last time before giving up on something i want to cherish for a long time (hopefully).

if anyone knows any good yorkie or shih tzu breeders, id be more than thankful.

you get what you give

nikbby — 2009-06-18T11:02:00Z

i've been so tired recently. i think it has something to do with being on holiday for so long. i hate it, i like being busy, i like having things to do. next week i start my job with ashton hopefully. he's going away to one of the fam. islands to work and hopefully i get to go too. his co-worker, marco, bring all his 1million girlfriends on every different island he goes too so, i just hope ashton can have the freedom to do the same.
this weekend i'm getting a customized egyptian tattoo from jason on my lower back. its gonna look so great and ill have a picture up my friday or sat.
but its time for me to get started on dinner. it's gonna take forever because the dessert i'm making with it. its a simple sponge cake with vanilla in between and i like to add my own flavors to recipes so i added hazelnut along with the vanilla, its ashtons favorite and it is very good. i got this recipe from a website, email me for it or just to ask about this recipe. ill be glad to give em.